There are days when even the simplest actions are experienced within me as particularly challenging. Yesterday was such a day, with simple tasks such as buying vegetables at an organic farm that I love, a short stop in the garden nursery to buy some flowers and other general simple arrangements.
Everything felt heavy to me, driving, meeting people, everything.
I know why. I am in a deep healing wave, every time I dive into the subconscious the depths revealed to me surprises me.
The experience is like I free myself from an unconscious prison. usually a memory or a traumatic memory, a fragmented piece from the past also comes up, and I go through the whole experience and so it is released.
I like to dive in.
Sometimes I forget that it leaves me exposed and it explains why I felt heavy yesterday in my body and what a relief It was being back in my home.
Some would say that I belong to a group of “very sensitive” people.
I will say that I am simply devoted to healing and just as I experience intensities of pleasure, expansion and light, so I also experience intensities of pain, reduction and contraction.
And there are also days when the inner peace is so deep, it is an island where one can rest in, and it deepens within me as far as the depth of healing is possible.
I am sure you know what I mean and had yourself glimpse or experienced such ones yourself as well.
Gratitude in my heart for the possibility of feeling life as it is within me.